Losing Heart

I’ve been a believer for three days now, this time around.  For almost two days before that, a total agnostic. Thirty-six hours of godlessness.  I didn’t pray.  I didn’t even lift my head.  I didn’t want to hear from God.  I wasn’t even sure He existed.
I was angry and hurt.  Exhausted.  Pissed.  Something was seething [...]

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In-Tension

The disciples did not understand any of this.
-Luke 18:34
The journey we’re on with Christ is one of great tension, of what can at times feel like a balancing act,  tug-of-war between two opposing forces and we are tight-roping the taut rope between, trying at times with all our might not to lose our balance.
But knocking [...]

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Repentance

It’s not a popular word, repentance, even in Christian circles.  All kinds of images come to mind when you think of it: a grown woman crawling on hands and knees on cold pavement for hundreds of yards as she approaches the steps of a Bolivian cathedral; loud and embarrassing wailing from overly-dramatic congregates during the [...]

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Returning to Silence

I’m coming again to revisit this earlier post, included below, from From the Silence, Speak, and more, the wisdom of the silence recommended by it, the contemplative prayer urged by encountering silence.
I am wearied by a lot of talk — my own, especially. There is a lot of it these days all around.  I’m finding that when I [...]

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